Not All
Pain
Screams.
A Five-Book Poetry Series
"Someday I will say, I met a poet. A poet disguised as a quietly grieving man, disguised as a caring father — what it didn't know was his ability to say so much with so few words."
FOR THOSE WHO CARRY IT
For every man who built walls instead of saying what he was carrying.
"I thought I was the only one who felt that way"
- J.LEE . EARLY READER
FOR THOSE WHO LOVE THEM
For everyone who has ever loved someone who couldn't say what they were carrying.
This book is for you if —
You have carried grief alone
And told no one how heavy it really was
You love someone who won't talk
And you want to understand what's behind the walls
You have raised children through loss
And found the ordinary tasks suddenly weren't
You have lost a partner
And felt something you couldn't name and couldn't say
You are watching children grow and leave
And wondering what comes next for you now
I Not All Pain Screams AVAILBLE JUNE 2026
II Seen COMING SOON
III One Sky COMING SOON
IV Nomad IN WRITING
V Found IN WRITING
BOOK ONE AVAILABLE JUNE 2026 • "NEVER STOP WRITING" • EARLY READER • "COMPELLED TO CARRY ON READING" • "I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO FELT THAT WAY"
ABOUT NIGEL
A poet disguised as
a quietly grieving man.
Early Reader, before the book launch
I lost my partner. I raised my two children alone through grief I didn't fully understand or cope with at the time.
I did what most men of my generation do. We push it aside, build walls, don't talk. I carried everything in silence for longer than I should have — because that is what I believed men were supposed to do.
Until I couldn't any longer.
Writing became the place where I could finally be honest. These books are not about performing strength. They are about what happens when the performance ends — and who you find yourself to be in the quiet that follows.
FOR THE GRIEVING MAN
If you have been
carrying it alone.
For the man who pushed it aside, built walls, and didn't talk. Who kept going because stopping wasn't an option. Who is still carrying what happened years ago because he never found the words and nobody asked.
These poems are the words you didn't have. They say what you felt but couldn't say. You are not the only one who felt this way.
• Evenings
• White Heat
• The Quiet Between Thoughts
• The School Form
These books were written by a man.
They are for everyone.
The subject matter is a man's experience. The feeling is universal. These books travel across the gap between writer and reader—whoever you are—because grief, love, silence, and the work of becoming do not belong to one gender.
WHO THIS IS FOR
FOR THOSE WHO LOVE THEM
If you have watched
from the outside.
For the partner who could see the walls but couldn't get through them. The daughter watching her father go quiet after the worst thing happened. The mother who knew something was wrong and was told nothing was wrong.
These books take you inside the silence. They show you what was happening behind the walls—in the language of someone who was finally honest enough to say it.
• The Wardrobe
• The Night Check
• Watching the Bus Leave
• Letting Someone In
What readers say
Reviewing the words before the launch.
"I thought I was the only one who felt that way."
J. Lee · Early Reader
"I felt compelled to carry on reading and find out what happens next. It's a roller coaster of emotions and makes you feel like you're peaking into someone's inner thoughts — which is reassuring."
Early Reader
"I'm crying. For you. For T. Your journey. I don't have a favourite — I felt each one. Thank you for putting me there. Beautiful. Never stop writing."
Early Reader
"Really powerful. The poems show how you've really developed and grown — albeit not because you particularly wanted to, but because life demanded it."
Early Reader
"Like you're peaking into someone's innner throughts..."
Beverly - Early Reader
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